theunspoken

19 May, early birthday dinner with Tricia ♥ 

Birthday surprise by sec sch clique. Thanks for coming by guys! The cake and also, delivering the watch ♥  

1st appearance and photo with my new love, Marc Jacobs watch ♥  

Rebecca ♥ 

Tricia ♥ 

Shunli (: 

Glenn (:

Chingkiat(: I almost been conned by his acting, saying he can’t get the watch for me and gave me an angry bird mug. lol. But still, thanks for planning all this! 

Shawn Tam(: 

Jackson(: 

You’re finally with me now! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥  THANK YOU TO ALL FRIENDS WHO HAVE CONTRIBUTED IN THIS GIFT. My np clique and sec school clique. *big hugs and kisses* 

hehehe ♥ .♥  

20 May, celebration with clique at Food for Thought ♥ 

(don’t have much photos becos photos wasn’t posted up yet)

Thank you mum for the 面线! ♥ 

Pizza Hut for dinner on birthday! 

Swensens cookies and cream ice cream cakeeeeeeeee :D 

Belated birthday present from boss, Stephanie (: 

Oh! And thank sisters for sponsoring my hair. Yes people, I dyed my hair. Did your notice it! hahaha. Last but not least, thanks for the gift vouchers my lovely clique of 7! ♥  

Like what my horoscope said about me months ago, I get to travel more this year! Not sure whether it’s really accurate or just coincidence but true enough, this’s my 2nd trip of the year! [Will I have more to come?(:]

Went for a 2D1N batam trip with my poly clique. Even though there are times where we have to wait for one another and have a hard time walking as a whole together,  nevertheless, we still have alot of fun! Played ATV as well as banana boat. Got many mosquitoes bites while playing the ATV and the scars are still there >< Playing the ATV let me know that I seriously can’t drive or should I say, make me determined that I’m a person that is bad with cars? lol. Blamed it on the tyre or the vehicle, I banged to the bushes and injured my right ankle. THE SCAR IS STILL THERE, IT’S TURNING BLACK ),: There goes my 美腿 hahaha. 

Banana boat was good! Was more fun than the last time I played it during iDARE Camp, must be the people I’m playing with (: Plus, the capsized of course. haha. 

Through this trip, I think we may have got closer with one another as well! And is hilarious on how we asked the guys to rank us(girls in the clique) and the expression they gave is like so serious. Hope to have a trip together again! ♥ 

Staying at Harris Resort Batam 

We have arrived! ♥

Roommate for the night! 

Last but not least, thanks for the birthday surprise! ♥ Even though it’s a short one but still I appreciated it alot! Didn’t see this coming at all. haha. THANK YOU ♥

20 years of my life have passed. It’s my 20th birthday today! Really appreciated all my friends for helping me to celebrate and also, coordinating with one another to make everything possible! Felt so blessed to have such good and close friends around. Really glad and touched to know that my friends put in so much effort in coordinating the present, haha. Thank you for the Marc Jacobs watch! Love it to bits and pieces! teehee <3 

Will post all the photos up here on a later date. 

P.S It’s GRADUATION CEREMONY TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWWW! Mum & sis are coming! :D:D

What’s the difference between love and like? Do I like you or do I love you? This question came to me when I was chatting with my friend.

It’s been long since I last chatted with him about my relationship stuffs, part of it was because he had a girlfriend previously and he’s in the army, hard to talk to and also, there isn’t a need to go around telling people about it. Totally don’t need to unless they asked you about it. That night, he happened to ask me about it and saying I sure have something to say. Like what he said, I have so I updated him from the very beginning to the end, but cutting out some details. I can’t type a story that happened for months or years in Whatsapp. I will die. Lol.

 Yes, I remembered me blogging that I will stop waiting, stop hoping. “So, I’m not going to wait for you anymore. Not going to cling onto any tiny weeny hope. If you and me are meant to be, it will be. I need to move on. I will miss you, I will accept this truth but I will move on. “Yes this. But my friend actually asked me whether I love him or I like him. I told him I don’t know and he said, that’s for me to find out. Like, oh dear, how on earth do I differentiate? This is probably one of the toughest questions ever.

“love someone then go for it. Fight for it”. “If fate stands in your way, ramp through it. If destiny don’t allow then change it. If time doesn’t permit, then try harder” . Words from my friend. This indeed made him sounded like an expert. Haha. He’s probably the only one that will ask me to go for it, fight for it. I wanted to as well but I not sure if I can still can take the pain anymore. I don’t know how to put those feelings into words. I just knew it sucks.

So, what am I suppose to do now? Fight for it or to move on. Can I do both at the same time? What’s the consequences of choosing one instead of the other? What’s the price I have to pay? 

No matter what I decide to do, I’m really glad to have my friend giving me advice. Though he asked me to filter away the negative thoughts and keep the good advice that he gave, I’m not sure if it’s working on me. lol. But I appreciated it so much. 

Work for the promoter job starts tomorrow. Might see me at one raffles place if any of you happened to be there. Hope I can cope with the questions that people may have and able to sell the vouchers out! Another important thing will be, friendly promoters please. Not all friend-friend kind, let me have at least someone to talk to? and, people to have lunch with meeeeeeee. Pray hard for good cooling weather and crowds and hit sales target!! Commission~~~~ it’s going 1am already, need to wake up at 8am plus, shall head to bed soon!

Yes, this’a a wishlist. I’m doing this to aid my friends in getting me presents. LOL. Like super thick-skinned —” hahaha To my NP clique, I do not need any gifts that serves memory purposes because I already had a scrapbook from you guys already(: I really don’t mind getting angbao from your if you’re not able to get what I listed here. Serious, I’m really fine with that(: I think giving me the money will be better because my another clique will be giving me money as well if I didn’t say out what I want to them or a present/item that I want but they can’t afford the whole amount. So, the money that your give I can then combine with theirs and get what I want. Does this sounds confusing? lol. hmmmmm, like abit ah.. haha

• Marc Jacobs watch
• Wallet (because my current one, the coin compartment is spoiling already)
• Tiffany and Co pendant, the gift box design. 
• Wristlet
• Nails Inc Magnetic nail polish 
• Vouchers from tracyeinny, H&M, topshop, F21 (in order of preference, hee) 
• Other things that are useful and your think I need/like (:  I suddenly realize all these all hard to get:/

So probably, angbao is the best idea? lolol. Anyway, the watch I think my sec sch clique is getting for me. I told them already so hopefully they will get it from me huh.. haha. praying hard! 

It’s happy donuts day! I LOVE J.CO DONUTS TEEHEE. 

Specially went out today for the promoter job’s training which I have mentioned earlier on. Was kinda surprised when I knew the training was at a dessert cafe. The lady was nice(although they’re late for like 20mins?), she saw us with no drinks and ask us to get some drinks and said it’s on the company(: 

Training was fine, just a brief intro about the company and what will be expecting during the 2 days roadshow at One Raffles Place. And also, how we should approach customers and so on. The most interested thing to me, is the commission. $.$ LOL. $1 for a voucher sold, still alright? better than having nothing. Target for all the promoters(us) is 500 vouchers for 2 days. 12 of us, 2 days, 8 hours, 1 person to sell around 21 vouchers a day. Sounds possible? Yeah, not extremely hard I guess? hopefully we can hit the sales target and get the 1% commission for total sales for 2 days! Yes, I need $$$$$$$. 

Life’s being alittle difficult lately. I have to plan properly how to spend my money because it’s too little. I need to spend on graduation robe, batam trip as well as dinner sessions like meetups and so on. Till I really have no means of doing so, I will then get pocket money from sis:/ So, plans for my hair gotta be push back. Sigh. But I really wish I can at least dye my hair before graduation .__________. *pullsface* 

Through the long bus rides, I did some thinking. I’m probably doing all these thinking because of what I saw. Photos with someone and even went overseas with her? I’m not sure whether is she the only one who went with you but does it really matter much when there’s others around? No, not really. But the thing is, I saw your friend saying you’ve process quite well on the photo with her. Alicia angeline. Who is she? Totally no idea. 

So, what if one day you ended up with her? That’s what I’m thinking. I cringed at the thought of that but what can I do? Nothing. Probably be jealous of her but on the other hand, if you are able to let go of the past and start anew. Why not? If she’s able to make you happy and stop being so miserable, that’s good for you. As long as you’re happy, I should be happy for you isn’t it? Though you’re not mine but at least I know you’re no longer being sad about the past with your ex-girlfriend. You will be happy with someone and she’ll be there for you. That’s all I will ask for, as long as you’re good, I will be good. I will try to be. I’m already trying. 

Like what I tweeted, “If it meant to be yours, it will be. No matter how long it will take for you to wait.” So, I’m not going to wait for you anymore. Not going to cling onto any tiny weeny hope. If you and me are meant to be, it will be. I need to move on. I will miss you, I will accept this truth but I will move on. 

I always have the idea that all I want is communication, just being friends. But somehow, deep in my heart, I know I can’t simply just be friends with you because I may fall back all over again. But yet, I want to talk to you. 

Blahhhhhhhhhhhh. It’s one of those nights with such thoughts again.